Courage. So few people talk about how quiet it is. The word sounds so loud. Like the roar of a lion or the thunderous clapping of a waterfall. But courage, I’ve found, is quiet. And it starts out small. Like a single stilled moment in a whirlwind of thoughts. Or single statement uttered into the […]
Just me and God, in the early morning hours. We drift among stars dusting a sky of the darkest blue, with a tinge of turquoise spilling in at its edges. Like my soul, it too is changing with the rising light. Just me and God, alone and together. She moves me, standing still at the […]
New years has always been one of my favorite celebrations. At times even the most significant marker of my entire year. I think because it’s always been a time of rebalancing for me. Even as a child who didn’t yet understand what I was up to. A time when the recollections of past lessons naturally […]
One of the hardest things I ever did should have been the easiest. At least it seems like it should have been. One of the hardest things I’ve ever done is let go. See, for years I had been carrying something so heavy, so cumbersome and awkward, that all I wanted to do was lay it down […]
For the first time in a while I felt like I belonged. At home in this place with no roof and no walls. For the first time in a while I found what I’d been missing. I found my footing. In the echoes of ancient truths whispered through the soles of my feet. I found […]
Sometimes I just have to disappear. I don’t mean ethereally, like in meditation or by consuming art, though I need that regularly too. I mean physically disappear. Sometimes I need to lose myself so completely that I’m lost to others as well. I have to shut off my phone, forget the world, and lose my […]
I tend to be most alive in the day. I’m in love with the greens of the trees and I’m energized by the sun. I crave the sound of singing birds and the feel of sun-warmed skin. But when times get hard – when I’m tired, overburdened, or worn down – that’s when I become […]
I’ve never really fit into any group that well. Maybe that’s part unhealed trauma, part innate oddness, and part superpower. My seat has always been with the misfits. That’s where I belong. With the loners and the rebels, the broken and awkward and divergent ones. With the people who couldn’t fit the box if they […]
You see, it was never about arriving. It has always been about the journey. It’s about how many times you fall into a hole and you dig your way back out of it. Wiser. Stronger. Lighter. Brighter. You’re never going to reach some final destination, because it’s always been right here. Here, in the midst […]
No longer do I need to go somewhere remote and alone to find you. I find you here. Within me. Surrounding me. The breath before my breath. The sight before my sight. I find you in the innermost parts of me, waiting patiently for my mind to see. No longer must I gaze upon a […]
I’ve come to believe that the secret to peace, to authentic happiness and fulfillment is to live as much as possible in the space between. The space between sentences, between thoughts, between doing this and doing that. The space between before and after, between here and there, feeling and thought, thought and action. The secret, […]
There you are, my love, did I but for a moment let my gaze slip away? Your presence soothes me through a birds innocent morning song, and in leaf shaped sunlight dancing upon the walls. Your beauty astounds me, glimmering in dew covered petals and streaked across these pastel skies. Your hope courses through me […]
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