Eventually I had to look up from my books to truly understand – but I’m grateful for every last line I read, because the drops of ink spilled by those who walked before me helped guide me towards my own first step. It wasn’t so much what those pages spoke, but the rising frustration I […]
It happened in an instant – too short to be measured, too profound to be imagined. In a single moment – too sudden, too prodigious, too spontaneous to be anything but fate – I saw it all. In the blink of an eye I replayed every bit of it. Every time that I’d betrayed myself. […]
There came a time when I needed a mother, when that’s what I wanted most and yet I couldn’t have. There came a time when I needed comfort and care, so I started by admitting that I felt abandoned. There came a time when I needed support, so I started by confessing that I felt […]
So now here I am, clothed in my womanhood, standing in my power. Here I am, stronger than I ever would have imagined I could be, more free than I ever thought possible, living with more purpose than I ever dreamt I’d find. So now here I am, looking back at the girl I once […]
Sometimes it can almost feel as if I am too much, like there is far more inside than one life could possibly contain. Sometimes it’s like I’m pulling apart at the seams and these inner galaxies are pushing against the walls of my chest, looking for ways to come pouring out. Sometimes it can catch […]
Life is like an ardent teacher – the kind that cares enough to be strict when it’s necessary and to push you as hard as it takes to help you learn, the kind that you either love or hate, depending more on what kind of student you are than on her teaching methods. The kind […]
I’ve finally learned what it means to love the clouds and the storms as much as the sunshine – and it hasn’t been as easy as that simple sentence makes it sound. Love isn’t easy, until it is. It takes work, until it doesn’t. This is something that takes time to understand. It took me […]
Oh how I long to be among your earth angels; teach me what I need to know. Strip me of all that’s selfish, all that’s dense, free me from any lies. I ask that you hear me now, as my soul is crying out. Speak to me and teach me. I’m calling all angels, teachers, […]
People like to say that you should never look back. They like to recite catchy little lines like don’t look back, you’re not going that way, or keep your eyes on the road ahead, not behind you – but the truth is rarely so simple as to fit in a convenient little one-liner, and these […]
There will always be farther to go; but I’m proud of just how far I’ve already come. I’ve stripped away layer after excruciating layer of who I thought I was, what I thought I knew, and what I wanted to believe. I’ve cleared away the rubble and put out the flames, and discovered my soul […]
The thing about spiritual awakening is that sometimes it hurts. We talk a lot about the way that everything gets a little brighter and how the world transforms before your eyes. We relish describing how there’s this bottomless well of love hidden right inside your own chest and the way that your relationships – with […]
Sometimes it seems like those who sing the most beautiful songs are the ones who had to fight the hardest to find their voice. Perhaps that’s why their songs are so hauntingly beautiful; they are filled not only with the love of now but also the tortured longing of yesterday. There are layers to their […]
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