No more working harder. No more carrying heavier. No more chasing the carrot on a stick. No more accepting every armload of expectations and rules and responsibilities that they hand me in the subconscious hope for some meager scraps of validation. No more living like my purpose is to become resilient and my happiness must […]
I’m rebuilding. But this time it’s different. This time I’m building a home within me first. I’ve already tore down the framework, pulled up the floorboards, and thrown out the trash. But this time I’m not looking outside myself for anything to start again. I’m not asking anything of anyone but myself. This time I’m […]
It gets easier. What was once a battle will someday be a simple decision. Straightforward, firm, sure. No tumultuous struggle between what if and what was and what is. No questioning and second guessing. Because each of yesterday’s battles leaves a mark. And while some might call them scars, really they are wisdom marks. Beautiful […]
It’s strange being a human. Caught in this place between instinct and deliberation. Between the construct of society and the truth of the wild. Between the physical and the spiritual. I imagine being a bird or an elephant would be so easy, but maybe because I’m not bird nor elephant – rather I’m something with […]
There once was a web, woven from fear and pain. A web that too many were stuck in. Voiceless, afraid, separated from their truth and their homes. But I am here to tell you that times have changed. The strings have been broken. The pull has been destroyed. Every tangle has been released. We are […]
Love is patient. Somewhere along the way I forgot that part. Maybe I was tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of longing. And in that pivotal moment where I could have chosen to let go even more, instead some tiny part of my heart rebelled. It clung to the idea that these dreams were on a […]
For the first time in a while, I can feel the weight lifting off my chest. For the first time in a while I am starting to turn for home. And as I work to find my way back, I can’t help but think about the time lost when I wandered, separated from you. Through […]
When a flower loses a petal, it continues to bloom. It doesn’t close in upon itself in fear of losing another. And it doesn’t reach out to take one from its neighbor. When a tree is bent by the wind, it digs down even deeper. A tree continues to grow, and through that struggle it […]
Hold the line. When the world feels like a sea of quicksand, grabbing at your ankles and trying to pull you down. Be still and wait. Wait for the hope that’s already rising inside. Hold the line. When it seems like everyone is giving in and giving up. Remember the truth, that even these mountains […]
So many times over the years I was caught in wonder. I watched in amazement, as I witnessed the simple magic that some people seemed to carry without effort or even awareness. For years, I progressed through various stages of emotional response – first jealousy and fear, then admiration, yearning, seeking. These people inspired me. […]
I forgive you for all of the pain you caused. And I forgive me for holding on to it for so long. You do not owe me anything and I no longer bind you to me in wounded frustration, fear, anger, or loss. I no longer bind myself by reliving those years in different faces, […]
Have you ever had so many things change at once that, in a single reflection, you realize you have no idea how you got here? And you’re not even sure yet where here is. You’re just sure that’s it’s not somewhere you’ve been before. The only thing that’s familiar is the sound of your own […]
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