It’s strange being a human. Caught in this place between instinct and deliberation. Between the construct of society and the truth of the wild. Between the physical and the spiritual. I imagine being a bird or an elephant would be so easy, but maybe because I’m not bird nor elephant – rather I’m something with […]
I sat beneath an oak tree once. It was a beautiful, strong tree with roots so large that they ruptured the surface and provided the perfect little nook where I could sit with my book. I didn’t read that day, though. Instead I spent that time marveling at that tree and letting my mind wander […]
If you experienced any kind of trauma as a child, and if you yourself become a parent after the essential inner work has at least been started, you quickly discover that there is this almost miraculous kind of healing that can take place in the most ordinary of daily circumstances, and even more profoundly in […]
Love is patient. Somewhere along the way I forgot that part. Maybe I was tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of longing. And in that pivotal moment where I could have chosen to let go even more, instead some tiny part of my heart rebelled. It clung to the idea that these dreams were on a […]
This isn’t a pretty story, even if all you see are the fragrant blooms in the revealed chapter. What you don’t see, what happens in the quiet when not another soul is around, is bitter and painful. You don’t see the blood dripping from my hands as I dig against gravel and aged earth to […]
Courage. So few people talk about how quiet it is. The word sounds so loud. Like the roar of a lion or the thunderous clapping of a waterfall. But courage, I’ve found, is quiet. And it starts out small. Like a single stilled moment in a whirlwind of thoughts. Or single statement uttered into the […]
Just me and God, in the early morning hours. We drift among stars dusting a sky of the darkest blue, with a tinge of turquoise spilling in at its edges. Like my soul, it too is changing with the rising light. Just me and God, alone and together. She moves me, standing still at the […]
New years has always been one of my favorite celebrations. At times even the most significant marker of my entire year. I think because it’s always been a time of rebalancing for me. Even as a child who didn’t yet understand what I was up to. A time when the recollections of past lessons naturally […]
One of the hardest things I ever did should have been the easiest. At least it seems like it should have been. One of the hardest things I’ve ever done is let go. See, for years I had been carrying something so heavy, so cumbersome and awkward, that all I wanted to do was lay it down […]
For the first time in a while I felt like I belonged. At home in this place with no roof and no walls. For the first time in a while I found what I’d been missing. I found my footing. In the echoes of ancient truths whispered through the soles of my feet. I found […]
Sometimes I just have to disappear. I don’t mean ethereally, like in meditation or by consuming art, though I need that regularly too. I mean physically disappear. Sometimes I need to lose myself so completely that I’m lost to others as well. I have to shut off my phone, forget the world, and lose my […]
I tend to be most alive in the day. I’m in love with the greens of the trees and I’m energized by the sun. I crave the sound of singing birds and the feel of sun-warmed skin. But when times get hard – when I’m tired, overburdened, or worn down – that’s when I become […]
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