Ashes and dust clouds of crumbled strongholds floating upon the very air. crimson trails of old blood, fragments of broken ideas are scattered everywhere. armor cracked and bent, arms and sword heavy; it’s not me that’s scared. heart and mind at the ready, something deep inside knowing that only the light will prevail. ©️ 2024 […]
I didn’t wake up feeling like a hero. Wrapped around a coffee cup, struggling to fight off the sleep still pulling at my eyelids and weighing on my shoulders, I felt more like the withering plant in need of saving. Waiting. Waiting for the sun to rise and energize again. I didn’t feel like a […]
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, they said. But it did kill me. It killed my sense of self worth. It killed my faith in myself. My faith in love. My faith in the world. It murdered my hopes and crushed the seeds of any dreams under its heel. Yes, I got stronger. But […]
So often I’ve heard people talk about what they would say to their younger self. And so many times when they look my way, expecting some deep and drawn out response, I stare blankly back. Unsure. Conflicted. Because every time I come to the conclusion that I wouldn’t want to change anything. Even the things […]
Just me and God, in the early morning hours. We drift among stars dusting a sky of the darkest blue, with a tinge of turquoise spilling in at its edges. Like my soul, it too is changing with the rising light. Just me and God, alone and together. She moves me, standing still at the […]
New years has always been one of my favorite celebrations. At times even the most significant marker of my entire year. I think because it’s always been a time of rebalancing for me. Even as a child who didn’t yet understand what I was up to. A time when the recollections of past lessons naturally […]
When I’m deep in the distractions, the refractions, consequence of my actions; help me remember how to surrender, come back to the center, and return bullshit to sender. Spirit remind me and I’ll come alone, through the unknown, back to the only true home that I’ve ever known. When I’ve closed, or unwittingly dozed, let […]
One of the hardest things I ever did should have been the easiest. At least it seems like it should have been. One of the hardest things I’ve ever done is let go. See, for years I had been carrying something so heavy, so cumbersome and awkward, that all I wanted to do was lay it down […]
For the first time in a while I felt like I belonged. At home in this place with no roof and no walls. For the first time in a while I found what I’d been missing. I found my footing. In the echoes of ancient truths whispered through the soles of my feet. I found […]
Sometimes the greatest gift is no gift at all. Sometimes being denied something is a push towards something better. There’s a reason the treasure waits at the end of the rainbow and not the beginning. Finding it must be a journey. It takes trust and hope and a bit of grit. You have to take […]
Finally, after so many years of neglect, that wounded little girl that I tried so hard to leave behind walked back out into the world with me. I dried her tears and took her hand and stood witness as she showed me all the things that once held her back. It was a beautiful process, […]
Maybe the reason I kept my mouth shut for so long was that I knew I’d scare people and maybe even myself with what would come out. Such strange and beautiful and consequential things want to slip from this tongue. Mysterious things with terrifying depth and long lasting reverberations. Maybe I stayed so quiet because […]
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