At times it feels like a curse to yearn for things that don’t seem to exist anymore. Things that I can’t quite explain but that it seems must be out there waiting to be found. Things with heart and soul and passion. Things with life and love and watery depths. Things that were born before […]
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Strength
One thing I know for sure is that many people get the idea of strength wrong. And courage too. Most people think strength is rigid and hard. Their idea of strength is cold and almost aloof. But I know what I know. That just isn’t the truth. Strength isn’t raised swords and razor teeth. It’s […]
Broken Petals
When a flower loses a petal, it continues to bloom. It doesn’t close in upon itself in fear of losing another. And it doesn’t reach out to take one from its neighbor. When a tree is bent by the wind, it digs down even deeper. A tree continues to grow, and through that struggle it […]
I wonder
I wonder if he knows how often his name still crosses my lips, or how everyone I’ve loved remembers his name and envies whatever magic he must possess. Whatever magic makes the simple memory of him revive something deeper than even the most experienced of divers can’t seem to find. I wonder if he realizes […]
A Pretty Story
This isn’t a pretty story, even if all you see are the fragrant blooms in the revealed chapter. What you don’t see, what happens in the quiet when not another soul is around, is bitter and painful. You don’t see the blood dripping from my hands as I dig against gravel and aged earth to […]
Hold the Line
Hold the line. When the world feels like a sea of quicksand, grabbing at your ankles and trying to pull you down. Be still and wait. Wait for the hope that’s already rising inside. Hold the line. When it seems like everyone is giving in and giving up. Remember the truth, that even these mountains […]
Over and Over Again
So many times over the years I was caught in wonder. I watched in amazement, as I witnessed the simple magic that some people seemed to carry without effort or even awareness. For years, I progressed through various stages of emotional response – first jealousy and fear, then admiration, yearning, seeking. These people inspired me. […]
Release
I forgive you for all of the pain you caused. And I forgive me for holding on to it for so long. You do not owe me anything and I no longer bind you to me in wounded frustration, fear, anger, or loss. I no longer bind myself by reliving those years in different faces, […]
Too Little
There are so many people stepping up and saying “you are not too much”. But there hasn’t been much talk about being “too little”. Too quiet. Too still. Too simple. Too boring. Too few definable goals. Too few material things. Too few observable activities. For years I suffered under the weight of thinking that there […]
Heart
Have you ever had so many things change at once that, in a single reflection, you realize you have no idea how you got here? And you’re not even sure yet where here is. You’re just sure that’s it’s not somewhere you’ve been before. The only thing that’s familiar is the sound of your own […]
Little Things
I love the little things. Like natural light trickling through open blinds, or the way the painted sky calls me away, at least for a moment, nearly every morning and night. Books half read laying face down, waiting expectantly to be picked back up and adored again from the same page. I love getting lost […]
Love Letter
I think that for my entire life I have been looking for you, though I didn’t know it until now. I sought you out in the faces of co-workers and the arms of lovers. I denied you in the empty words of strangers who saw ‘too little’ and the distant looks of friends who saw […]
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